Danger of Dabble

by Brett
(utah)

I consider myself to be an average type guy, one who enjoys the sight of scantily-dressed blossoming young females parading around, you know like at the mall, at the park, riding bikes or wherever I'm sure we can all relate. I really started liking these images, and started seeking them out wherever i could. They became more and more dominate in my mind as i nurtured this exciting stimulation. Little did I realize this lust was killing my love. I routinely shop at a local hardware store and one day this woman smiles and makes eye contact with me, I was like wow that was cool. I went on with my work day as usual but kept having flashes of her face in my mind. Day after day they became more and more fixating. I would go back there just to get another fix of her. Oh yea I'm married 37 years to my high school sweetheart, I'm 55 yrs old . I didn't think much about it being dangerous or anything, but as this goes on, about 2 weeks, I become totally obsessed with this gal. I cant sleep at night, her face wont leave my mind, not to mention her sexy body.

,I have no peace. I'm laying with my wife thinking of another woman, how dark. One day I decide to tell this woman how I feel, I tell her I cant get her off my mind. She asks if I'm single and I sheepishly admit to having been married 37 yrs. She's like what! you cant be coming in here and seeing me like this Duh. So i say your right and vow to Leave her alone but I can't. The feeling inside like when you view porno or something WILL not leave. It dominates my every waking moment.I tell her man I would really like to talk to you just for lunch or something. So the gal agrees to talk with me and I get to know the person behind the body a little and discover I was only lusting after her image in my mind not her, she was nothing like I wanted her to be, or had fantasized about. This experience totally rocked my world, my friends, I was tempted to leave everything i had for this Image in my head, it was the most powerful, dark force Ive ever felt.

I wanted to feel like a woman would still find ME attractive. After meeting with her and seeing who she really was, Divorced twice, currently engaged but just living with him right now, dating as many as 3 guys a day in between marriages, stuff stuff like that ya know. the feeling is finally fading. I believe it was the sin of the eyes, the lust that started small and grew like a wild fire consuming my every waking moment. Never had I experienced anything like this before. It was if I had no control, it was horrible. I believe God was showing me the danger of the Dabbling in LUST.

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Euphoria
by: Anonymous

Lust is indeed a powerful thing. In trying to help understand my husband's MLC I came across articles which mentioned how the brain is affected by infatuations like yours and how it can last up to two years. It can produce euphoria similar to drug addictions. It is scary. It is good that you were able to realize the grass wasn't greener.

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Stick with who you know
by: Baz (Australia)

These are my random thoughts on lust.
Lust is a powerful force, but it?s like the old grass looks greener on the other side of the fence. More often than not ? it isn?t! You went pretty far with this infatuation. Your wife would call it an affair albeit emotional rather than physical (wives don?t distinguish, and nor should they really). You now have a chance to make things right.
The thing is, would you really want to throw your entire current life away, to pursue a new relationship with someone you barely know. Think about the people that would be hurt by your actions. If your current marriage is irretrievably bad (which I note you haven?t mentioned at all), then leave. Then you?ll be free to pursue the women of your dreams. You can?t have your cake and eat it too.
We all have thoughts of ?I wanted to feel like a woman would still find ME attractive? but seriously, that?s very shallow. I bet you could easily find (another) women that finds you attractive, so that thought is just rubbish. Believe that you are - that's all you need to know, there's nothing to prove there.
Now you might like looking at and appreciating sports cars, just remember the high maintenance and worry about ownership and get back into your own reliable car that is much more suited to your needs rather than your ego, and enjoy the drive home.

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Observation
by: Colin Jones

There are two phrases in this story that stand out.
"I was like wow"
"She's like what! you cant be coming in here and seeing me like this Duh."
Both of these sound like the utterances of a much younger person. Is the writer that desperate to appear younger that he has to resort to speaking like a teenager? This sounds like a person with a severe midlife crisis. Next he'll be getting a tattoo.
I was going to submit this as anonymous but decided to put my name so that you know who to complain about my comments to.

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your own path
by: Anonymous

Every man has the choice to make a drastic change in his life. And make a drastic change to stay alive. I did it...got rid of everything and moved to Shenzhen China. I wish I would have done it earlier. I love life.

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Lucky you saw the light!!!
by: Anonymous

I only wish my husband would have seen the light like you did before it was too late. My husband and I were married 25 years and the same thing happened to him only he didn't know when to stop and chose to leave his wife and children. I only wish he could have spoken to someone like you so he would have seen the light.

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