It is hard, but keep going.
by Michael
(Bartonville IL)
I notice I don't have the drive to do what I used to, like washing the car or mowing. Oh there is more but I find myself coming up with excuses.
No I don't want a fancy car or a new wife. I don't have the sex drive and yes I notice I hang out with people in there 20 to 30 range, and yes I'm 49.
My wife and I finally are talking about my issue. She knew something was wrong with me but couldn't put her finger on it. Yes I'm tring to get my life on track dealing with this myself.
It's truly a bear day-to-day because I'm at the stage of 'why live, why work, why get OLD?'. I have battled this for a couple of years and now I know I have to push myself to that next era, just as the day I moved out of my parents home at the age 17. I had a great life growing up, was given anything I wanted. I hurt my parents when I just packed up but I had that drive to fly out of the nest.
Now I know I have to have that drive to just grow up, even tho it comes with more pains and I'm not 20 any more.
Up until now I would talk to anyone because I was the strong one and I didn't have issues. Well I do now, but it helps reading other people's stories.
I could add so much more, but the point is when you notice you are changing like I did, get some help with a friend you can talk to, or read as I did. It's not easy going through the change of life because it's like you wake up and notice I hurt, I can't function like I was younger, I feel tired, and that is not me...... but it is.