It is hard, but keep going.

by Michael
(Bartonville IL)

I notice I don't have the drive to do what I used to, like washing the car or mowing. Oh there is more but I find myself coming up with excuses.


No I don't want a fancy car or a new wife. I don't have the sex drive and yes I notice I hang out with people in there 20 to 30 range, and yes I'm 49.

My wife and I finally are talking about my issue. She knew something was wrong with me but couldn't put her finger on it. Yes I'm tring to get my life on track dealing with this myself.

It's truly a bear day-to-day because I'm at the stage of 'why live, why work, why get OLD?'. I have battled this for a couple of years and now I know I have to push myself to that next era, just as the day I moved out of my parents home at the age 17. I had a great life growing up, was given anything I wanted. I hurt my parents when I just packed up but I had that drive to fly out of the nest.

Now I know I have to have that drive to just grow up, even tho it comes with more pains and I'm not 20 any more.

Up until now I would talk to anyone because I was the strong one and I didn't have issues. Well I do now, but it helps reading other people's stories.

I could add so much more, but the point is when you notice you are changing like I did, get some help with a friend you can talk to, or read as I did. It's not easy going through the change of life because it's like you wake up and notice I hurt, I can't function like I was younger, I feel tired, and that is not me...... but it is.

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One day at a time ain't gettin it!
by: Gerald E

I'm 62, and until 5 years ago I was and had always been in wonderful physical condition. I actually woke up one morning in June of 2007 to go on vacation with my wife and overnite my health as I knew it was gone, since then I've been diagnosed as far as the doctors can tell with PR or Rheumatoid Arthritis, My work is very physically demanding, I'm almost at the point that I can't handle the demands of the job. My wife,God Bless her is my stronghold and in private I wonder how much she can take as she see's her once Verile man break-down physically and emotionally,we do pray and are Christians, Job was a hell of a man in my opinion! Thank You for providing a place to air my feelings, it helps

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I know the feeling
by: Anonymous

I know exactly how you feel. I'm 46, and everything suddenly changed this year. It's amazing how quickly it all happened.

I brought a lot of it on myself by trying to work two jobs and working 80 hour a week. I was able to handle it for over a year, but then I hit a wall.

Now everyday seems like a struggle just to get through it. I've slowed down, but I'm just not recuperating like I used to. Hopefully, with proper rest, diet, and exercise, I can get some energy and enthusiasm for life back.

Just keep fighting everyday, and pray things get better! I certainly see things differently now, and my ego has left the building. So maybe it a process to get you focused on the important things in life, and to let go of the meaningless things you thought were so important before.

I live more in the moment now, and my life is much simpler. So if I can just embrace these changes, maybe everything will work out for the better in the long run. Good luck!

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