Just the beginning

by david
(rochester ny )

I just turned 30 years old. I have noticed changes in my behavior and how I think. I have 2 kids 2 years old and 6 months old and a wonderful wife.

Life isn't what it seems. Things changed in how or what I am doing. Lately I am very negative on myself for being distant from my family. I sit in front of a TV and space out.

Sometimes I get emotional such as cry or get teary-eyed, watching something on TV.

Always thinking about something and being worried all the time. Being lazy and don't have any motivation to do anything and is easier to do nothing. Sometimes I will go out with a buddy on the weekend one day and drink to escape.

I think things that I do are getting old and boring. I feel like life has a different task to do. But all the same it is what it is..