Rollercoaster of Love
I have posted my situation on some of the boards. In a nutshell, my husband was involved with a coworker. The extent is not clear - was it an EA? MLC? ML transition? Not really sure. But what I am sure about is that the trust is gone and I am not sure what to do about it.
To my knowledge, the OW is no longer a part of his life as he switched jobs. I sometimes can't help but wonder if he misses her. I sometimes find myself trolling social media to look at her pictures and wonder what I did wrong as a wife. I have days when I KNOW this isn't my fault and then there are days where I feel like I have failed.
It is about 10 months from the bomb drop. I have talked with him about parting ways but he seems committed to this relationship. He has said he would do anything for me for the rest of his life to prove how sorry he is and how stupid his actions were. It bothers me because I was always committed to this relationship. I have days where I think I forgive him and then there are the days when I think I deserve better than this.
Some days I just get so tired of riding this rollercoaster.